I must face complete death now
If you are gone forever
The uncertainty of this distance
Is taking whatever of love it can sever

It is a waste of time to write anymore
When it no longer relieves my sorrow
The death of love is the birth of hate
I will hate myself even more tomorrow

I hate my heart for loving you still
For ignoring the truth circumstance has brought
For not blaming you in your choice to leave
For resisting advancements I sought

I am pleading with my mind
Not to steal confidence from my heart
Fill it with unkind thoughts
Then rip even those thoughts apart

If we must part for good
Let me be the memory holder
Give me every happy photo if you would
To ensure your smile never grows colder

I must start an epidemic with this hope
Afraid of the disguise truth is hiding
The complex part is trying to cope
Spreading through my entire body

Now that half of me has died
The other half is trying to give
Accepting nothing from others
Without you I see no reason to live

The arrow of death has conviction
As it wiggles through my heart
A straight line has no friction
This way it kills every vital part

Every month without you
Taunts the inbetween days
Every hour is about you
Each minute and its cruel ways

The power of dreaming about you
The seconds and moments that doubt you
How deep must I bury reality
To overcome life without you

I want to close the book forever
Then again comes this urge
Echos from your words of silence
Split the remains of love's purge

My confidence always shifts
As the complexity remains
The end of our story drifts
Leaving behind random stains

In the middle of a long night
I stare into the mirror
To watch a single tear drop
Confirming every loaded fear

You dont see the salty puddles on my floor
Waiting for this wrong to become right
An empty room when I open the door
And you are somewhere off in flight

What meaningless task did I conquer today
Between this depression and its delight
Longing for you I am drawn in deeper
Captured then blindfolded to fight

I can feel destiny's plan
We have so much to accomplish in its light
But darkness does all it can
To dim the hope part of my sight

Is this the dark side of love I am seeing?
Or the side of my sadness with hope trying to be fair
Is this my subconscious trying to stop?
Or warn my heart of what is not there

Is this logic trying to resolve
All that is embedded in your stare?
Knowing it can never capture
The nuances of the ways that I care

Inherent in my low energy now
Is the will not to fall asleep
Because after the insomnia
Follows something overwhelmingly steep

Love not only mandates secrets
It then reprimands itself for falling too deep
As the passion resurfaces
Anxiety decides which ones to keep

Do you know what it's like
Trying to keep my soul alive?
My mind destroying its core
My heart telling it to survive

What is planned for me tomorrow?
Today has my blessing to die
If death leaves an ounce of sorrow
Then tomorrow is also a lie

I will struggle my life away
For a single kiss to see me through
That moment manipulates my thoughts today
I need your rainbow to fade this blue

The residue of this sorrow I would never let you borrow
I dont want you to reflect on this pain
Just say you love me and call me tomorrow
Even paradise gets a little rain